I guess I exaggerated a bit 3 months ago when I wrote that the changes were settling in… they were just getting started
For a while I thought I’d found another outlet for the mass of ideas and trivia and connections that I have instead of neurons. So I didn’t write anything other than work stuff.
It was horrible
I had no time (an exaggeration!) and when I did have time the sorry excuse for a laptop struggled even with Open Office (since when did I become so dependent on a word processor?). But you know that habit people sometimes have when they give diaries and journals as presents? Does any of you actually have one tucked away in a corner? I found three So one evening when the entire situation had become unbearable (I am right little so-and-so when I don’t write) I picked up one of those journals and I put real pen to real paper… and didn’t stop, it was wonderful! Of course, to my embarrassment, I wrote a short story linked to Harry Potter. It was clear why, don’t get me wrong: the little one has adamantly refused to read anything but Harry Potter for the last two months, so you could say I am steeped in the magical world (I can’t wait until she is old enough to get her started on Lord of the Rings… maybe start with the Hobbit?).
My hand hurt from writing, so I also got over myself already and bought a computer so I can type the short story up But I hope I learnt my lesson – write, for goodness’ sake, in whatever form you can!
Also during this period I have re-done several fun personality tests – I can report that I haven’t changed much, even though some of my tendencies have solidified over the years. I find it very interesting to re-visit things like that after sometimes a decade… for curiosity’s sake – and for those who haven’t realized that yet, curiosity never killed the cat, probably saved a few of its lives though! Some of those tests (like the 16 personalities one – the zodiac of personality testing 😛 ) were scarily accurate. Others, like the DOPE (Dove Owl Peacock Eagle, not that plant!) were more interesting because of the scoring system than anything else. And here’s the interesting part: we use these tests for employment purposes (not so much here) because we are too distant from each other to actually get to know ourselves and those around us. There are also so many of us and in a lifestyle that doesn’t allow for the knowing of ourselves, let alone the others.
See, my mind is nowhere near where it should be… but I am getting there, and that’s such a relief! Having my type of brain working only in the shallows of life is uncomfortable to say the least, but I can still use those times to sort out things for my convenience, so I can get back into the depths I like to swim in…